Love is…

Love is like a flower

It blooms and turns into a magnificent thing

That only grows stronger and more powerful

Love is a beautiful thing when taken care of

Love can cure any broken heart

Love can also bring you the purest joy

But love can also backfire and sting, as wise men say “Love hurts”

Losing a love is the worse pain you’ll ever feel

Because there is no medication that can cure a broken heart

Nothing can make it go away – other than another love, a stronger love.

Originally I was pretty depressed when I wrote this poem and it ended with a line that I don’t believe in anymore the line said “There will always be a hole in your heart” at the time this was the best sentence to end it with because it was what I felt. Nowadays I feel the way the last sentence is now “Nothing can make it go away – other than another love, a stronger love.”


Missing You
I remember your hand touching my cheek
I remember the tears coming down my face
The way I felt when I left your side
I still feel the pain in my heart
My heart aches with your absence
I miss the way you said you love me
Why did I have to leave you ?
When I love you so dearly
Why can’t we be together ?
Forever till the end of time
All I have for now are the memories of you and I
Because the distance took us apart
My love for you only grows stronger
With time
Never fading away
Always with me
Missing you
By—->> ME

New Nicholas Sparks Book


Nicholas Sparks just announced that he has a new novel coming out. (YEEAAAAAHH) I am a huge fan and am very anxious to read his new book. I only hope it’s not like the last one – The Best of Me. I didn’t like it, maybe it was just because it didn’t end the way I wanted it too. I actually started reading because of Nicholas Sparks. The Notebook was my first favorite book and after reading it, there was no way to stop me. 

I guess could say Nicholas Sparks made me the book junkie I am today and for that I will be forever great full for.

I actually have various favorite Authors, but nowadays I am a huge Michael Connelly fan. I have almost every single book and simply love Harry Bosch.

Most people would say I’m crazy for loving books so much, but I don’t care. Reading a book is like flying, or entering a new world.  Every Book is different every Author writes different. It’s always very interesting to read a classic and then read a NY Times Bestseller from now. The language is different. The styles have changed.

I love reading, do you?

“A room without books is like a body without a soul.” 
―    Marcus Tullius Cicero

Time, look where we are and what we’ve been through.

Have you ever heard this song? It’s wonderful. A beautiful song from the Backstreet boys. It means a lot  to me. I really connect with the song, I don’t really know why but I love it. Check out the song….

This year Backstreet boys will celebrate their 20th anniversary. They became a band in 1993, the year I was born. Not only will I be turning 20 but so will my favorite band. I can’t even believe it. I’m a Backstreet boys fan since I was 4 years old. My mom let me go to my first BSB concert with 7. And since I haven’t stopped. I’ve moved around a couple of times. From north American to south America to now Europe. And the boys have been one the only things I could have everywhere. World tours are so important to me, because I can participate in them. I’m the kind of crazy fan that stands 12 hours in line to be one of the first ones inside the stadium. (concert hall)

I used to want to marry the guys.

But now I respect them and even look up to them. They are wonderful people with beautiful voices. I will never stop loving them. When they took a break in 2003 everyone told me it was over…

I would find another band to love, but I didn’t. And then they came back in 2006 with “Never Gone”. It was a perfect title for the album. Unfortunately I was in South America and they never went on tour there. 

So I never got to see the concert, but that didn’t stop me from watching a couple concerts on Youtube.

I am so proud that they’ve been around for 20 years! I hope they will be around for another 20 years.

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” 

―    Lao Tzu

2012 Review…

2012 didn’t turn out like I planned. I was COMPLETELY disorganized and lazy. I’m not saying I did not try hard enough, but it just did not turn out how I had intended it to. School projects got in the way of the two things I love dearly. And no it’s not Chocolate and Ice cream. Writing and reading. The only time I really got some work done was in the Summer holidays, and even then I was not as productive than I had expected to do.

I am not trying to bore you with this post. This is just going to be MY review of MY year. 2012. So how to start telling the story of my completely fun and let us not forget disorganized year.

Once upon a time there was a girl. Who lived in a Castle far away for any human contact…. Naaa just kidding. Gottcha.

My year, started out like any other one. New Years Eve and my New Year’s resolutions. (That by the way MOST of them I never did.) On that page long list there were things such as: Lose weight, Start a diet, eat less chocolate, buy a dog, support a child (through a program. I have already talked about this one.) and there were lots of other shit I wrote there. But I will not go into detail. So the point is that most of the things on my list were pointless.

And the things that did matter to me I did do. I started to support a Child through a program in April. (He’s from Nepal) As you all probably already know, I got a dog. So who cares if I didn’t start a damn Diet.  Eating healthy is hard when there is a bowl of ice cream in front of you. (Not that I have one right now… Or do I?)

In June I went to the NKOTBSB concert in Stuttgart – Germany. I touched Nick Carter 2 times. (Yes, I feel powerful now.)  The concert by the way was simply amazing. I got in line at 9am and stayed there until they opened the doors at 7pm. But it was totally worth it. I met so many awesome fans, made friends, and was in the front row. I could have stopped raining but other than that it was all perfect. I had a blast.

I went  to France and Italy with my class. I did so many things with my class in 2012 I hardly even remember everything we did.  All in all it was a pretty impressive year. And I do hope that 2013 will be even better.

I might even write a New Year’s resolution list. If I do then you might have to wait until next year to know what they were. Maybe I’ll try a diet AGAIN. Never works but I just keep trying. LOL

Thanks for reading and stay safe.

See you

“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.” 

―    Dr. Seuss

On Christmas Eve…

The lights went out. Everything was suddenly black. Everyone was in panic. A day before Christmas and there weren’t any lights. It was like the world was ending. But it couldn’t be right? The world was supposed to end on the 21st of December not the 24th. It was like Santa Clause was making us take a break from our messed up lives. And for one night we should only concentrate on what really matters, Family. Today they would all have to stay together. If they liked it or not, they would play games and tell jokes. Laugh together cry together. That was HIS present to the world. One night without computers or cell phones. A night that no one would ever forget.

That’s why he is so magical. He’s Santa Claus.

Internet dating break-up

One thing I hate about dating websites is that once you’ve put yourself out there the creepiest people come after you. And once your on there it’s almost impossible to find a way out. I might not be the most attractive girl out there, but dude that 40 year old bald guy is not my type of guy. But these websites keep sending me these strange suggestions. No I don’t want to get to know you.

What really pisses me off is that I know so many people that found “the one” through internet dating. Well INTERNET it ain’t working with me. I had one damn account so I decided it was time to take my page down. So I clicked delete. I thought I would NEVER be bothered by dating websites ever again… There’s always a but right? Yes in my case there is also one. BUT these damn websites still have my e-mail so they keep sending me e-mails to “come back”. It’s worse than a break up. If anyone knows how I can break up for good with these websites please tell me.

So I’m still single and being bothered by these damn match making websites. Maybe WordPress is my savior.